Bittersweet memory

Something a good friend of mine asked that made me remember this bittersweet memory.
Why is this memory bitter? It's because i had to break somebody's heart.
Until now, i still believed that i lead him on by being his friend, and i mean close friend.
I still feel that it was my fault and i was very cruel towards him as after that incident we never kept in touch.

We talked about everything and even personal stuff but i did not felt that way about him.
He was a nice, sweet and good looking guy but yet something just didn't click.
Anyway i only knew him for a week and i've been down that road before and it didn't end well
so maybe that experienced influenced my decision.
He was so persistent and did not give up easily.

However this is when this memory turns sweet, because of him i finally realized that the person that i really wanted to be with. I gathered all my courage and asked this person if he felt anything for me. Surprisingly, the feeling was mutual and we became an item...
After that i told him that i was involved but he didn't believed me until he saw us together.
I know, i know, i'm a cold hard B***H but what else could i have done?

Now it has been five years since that incident and i do not noe what happened to you but i hope that you have met someone who deserves you and will appreciate you for the person that you are.

I know that you will probably never come across this but i'm sorry for the way our friendship ended and am forever grateful as if you weren't so persistent, i may not have spent 5 loving years with my bie....

...Thank You from the bottom of my heart...

The Twilight Saga

On Monday, i finally saved up enough money to buy the four books.
I went to Jusco's popular to buy them when too bad they only had Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse.
So i bought the three books and winced a bit at the price (RM 120++) but i knew it'll be worth it.
I read twilight as soon as i reached home, OMG it's so addictive.

I finished the three books yesterday afternoon when i decided i should try my luck at Tesco's popular. I rushed into the store and looked around and i saw the final book Breaking Dawn.
When i finally reached home, i sat down and started to read and read and read. Halfway through the book i finally realized that it was already 3 am. And i had to wake up early to settle sum stuff.

So i decided to sleep but i woke up at 4.30 am startled by a sound only to realized that it was one of my black kitten that had sneaked into my room. Damn it, no matter how hard i tried i could not go back to sleep so i continued reading Breaking Dawn and i actually finished the book by 7.30 am. Cool right? Just in time to get ready for the meeting. I was in such a high.. *smiles*

I was fresh all through the meeting but it was only around 1.30 pm when i had lunch with my bie at MMU that i suddenly felt tired and slighly dizzy. After lunch, i raced home and before my head could hit my pillow i was already dreaming of vampires, shape shifters, and the one and only Edward Cullen. Haha....

It was only after dinner that i realized i had finish the while series in 4 days with my busy schedule. Hmm... if only my textbooks could be so interesting.. Damn.. *winks*
I think i'm a bit obsess with the twilight series. After i read twilight, i realized that the movie didn't do it justice but luckily i have a vivid imagination so i was very happy with my version of the movie in my head. *winks*

To all fiction fans as myself, this series is definately worth the money. Just wished i could have bought them earlier.

xoxo
Jessica

The Measure of a Man by Sidney Poitier

Well, this book was published in 2000 so i'm 9 years late.
However, this book remains timeless. It's an memoir of his life and career.
This memoir reveals his childhood years in Cat Island, his respect and love for his parents.
How they influenced him in becoming how he is today.
How he knew his self worth and sense of right and wrong by the age of fifteen.
How he overcome the racial barrier and became the first ever black actor to gain widespread acceptance by audiences of all races purely for his acting ability and screen presence.
This life changing memoir captures the essence of Sidney Poitier and it has inspired many people disregarding race, color and religion.


This memoir inspired me to live life to the fullest with integrity.
This life that was given to me is full of possibilities and i strive harder to live my life with values such as forgiveness, integrity and faith.
I may be different but I have learned through this book that it does not matter what other people think I am but what i think of myself that truly matters.
Normally, I am a person that enjoys fiction however this memoir is brings meaning and inspires me therefore by sharing this memoir i hope that other people may gain from this.

This is a quote by Sidney Poitier,
"I never had an occasion to question color, therefore, I only saw myself as what I was... a human being"

Kiss From A Rose by Seal

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.

But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray.

There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?

But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray,

I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the gray.

There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.

But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.

Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the gray
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.

Blogging

Hey, welcome to my blog.
I know i registered this blog so long ago but never quite commit myself to it.
Hopefully i will stick to it from now and share pieces of my life with you all...
Please bear in mind that I'm still very very new with this (noob) so for any future mistakes please forgive me ya...
Hope everyone has a great year and may your life be filled with many blessings....