Same old same old...

*blows* *blows*

Just blowing off the dust collected in this blog... haha... (ya i know, cold joke...)
wow, my last blog was like in may, my god it's been so long...
Well, lots of things have changed and some things have stayed the same...
some people have moved on to bigger and better things while i'm still here wondering where i fit...
but it's ok cause i'm surrounded by people who love me and am counting my blessings...
though there are times where i just wanna let go and just run wild... haha... (yeah rite...)


Seriously, what changes a person? I know this person who recently said that they have found the light, the right road to take, like suddenly they know what they need and wish to do good to others without taking anything. Yet they still end up doing nothing...
Hypocritical? maybe. Emotional? most likely. Bull shitting? definitely.
Maybe i'm being to harsh on them, but let's just wait and see if history repeats itself.


Anyway, why do i always round up useless and lazy people for my assignments? Why must they always wait for someone to push them and ask them to do something? Are they still in kindergarten? Then when things go wrong they ask what should they do? Fix the problems dummies! I do have to concentrate on my studies too you know. I just don't get it, the dateline is getting near but yet they are still not panicking? This really puzzles me...


Well, what to do? All i can do is to try to finish the assignment and pass it up before the dateline..

Free at last !

Phew, this past month has been hectic.
My finals, recording, shooting, bla bla bla...
Finally, everything is over and now i have a picnic, vacation and some quality time to spend. :-)

Ok just to catch up, my finals sucked. Especially financial reporting and accounting, 1st question already didn't know how she wanted us to answer. (T.T)
Anyhow, to more cheerful matters, the band finally finished recording new us.
It was so much fun, Alex has so much input and ideas.

Then the shooting was also fun i had to act as a girl trying to be accepted by her family and friends. haha...
Ernest's course mates had to come down to malacca on Saturday afternoon and started shooting till 4 am and had to wake up at 7 am the next day then continue the shooting and finally wrapped things up around 2am and rushed back to kl.
Thank you for all your help and hopefully you're fully rested by now. :-)

That should be about it and i'll try to update this blog more often...
Now, i'm going to concentrate on making my own melody for my own songs so wish me luck k...

The Banana Boat Song (Day - O)

I love this song... He he...

The banana boat song is a Jamaican folk song that was sung by men who would work on loading bananas on ships.
Their shift ended at daylight and they wanted a Tally Man to come and count their bananas so they could go home.
The song was sung by slaves in banana fields in Central and South America.
It is a Jamaican Folk Song

Day-o, Day-ay-ay-o
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Day, me say day, me say day, me say day
Me say day, me say day-ay-ay-o
Daylight come and me wan' go home

Work all night on a drink a' rum
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Stack banana till the mornin' come
Daylight come and me wan' go home

Come, Mister tally man, tally me banana
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Come, Mister tally man, tally me banana
Daylight come and me wan' go home

It's six foot, seven foot, eight foot BUNCH!
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Six foot, seven foot, eight foot BUNCH!
Daylight come and me wan' go home

Day, me say day-ay-ay-o
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Day, me say day, me say day, me say day...
Daylight come and me wan' go home

A beautiful bunch a' ripe banana
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Hide the deadly black tarantula
Daylight come and me wan' go home

It's six foot, seven foot, eight foot BUNCH!
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Six foot, seven foot, eight foot BUNCH!
Daylight come and me wan' go home

Day, me say day-ay-ay-o
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Day, me say day, me say day, me say day...
Daylight come and me wan' go home

Come, Mister tally man, tally me banana
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Come, Mister tally man, tally me banana
Daylight come and me wan' go home

Day-o, day-ay-ay-o
Daylight come and me wan' go home
Day, me say day, me say day, me say day
Me say day, me say day-ay-ay-o
Daylight come and me wan' go home

Bananas!!! Gotta love it rite? :-)

I've been tagged!

A~Z
Courtesy of Shirlyn Goh

A ~ Attached or single? Happily attached... :-)

B ~ Best friend? hmm.... guess...haha...

C ~ Cake or pie? OMG... apple pie is so so so good... Yum Yum...

D ~ Day of choice? Definitely friday...

E ~ Essential item? deodorant! haha..dun wanna smell stinky.. ;-p

F ~ Favorite colour? Purple!!!

G ~ Gummy bears or worms? Gummy bears hands down...

H ~ Home town? hmm.... i'm torn between batu pahat and melaka....

I ~ Favorite Indulgence? Ben & Jerry's Ice cream...

J ~ January or July? July...

K ~ Kids? Adore them...

L ~ Life isn't complete without? me books!! haha...

M~ Marriage date? after i completed my acca...

N ~ Number of magazines subscriptions? none. i buy them when i feel like it...

O ~ Oranges or apples? Both but i love grapes and peaches better...

P ~ Phobias? my ego's too big to have any phobias... (not a good habit)

Q ~ Quotes? hmm... not sure wor....

R ~ Reasons to smile? to make me happy??

S ~ Season of choice? hmm... i haven't actually seen autumn but it's my favorite season... it feels so mellow...

T ~ Tag five people. *Edwin*Chee Hwee*Ariel*ZiJing*Marianne*

U ~ Unknown fact about me? if i tell then it won't be unknown anymore now would it? haha...

V ~ Vegetable? cucumber and tomatoes... hehe...

W~ Worse habit? my sarcastic sense of humour....

X ~ X-ray or ultrasound? dun understand what this means.... -.-"

Y ~ Your favorite foods? tasty food!!

Z ~ Zodiac? Virgo and proud to be one!!! XD
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7 random facts about me....

One ~ i'm very shy...

Two ~ i have a huge collections of comics and storybooks...

Three ~ i love animals...

Four ~ i'm a twilight freak!!!

Five ~ i stutter when i'm speaking with an unfamiliar person... lame right?

Six ~ i'm a collector of Sweet Valley Books so if you have any and wish to sell
them let me know...

Seven ~ Finally!! haha... i love singing
(the reason why malacca rains very often) XD

I understand....

This is a song i would like to dedicate to a friend of mine.
I will not say who as i know she will know it's for her when she reads this.
Just wanted to let you know that i do not judge you as love really works in mysterious ways.
hope that you can truly find love and happiness...

Foolish by Ashanti

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is eating for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how
I allow you to treat me this way and still i stay

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya wanna do me wrong
See when I'm home, I'm all alone
And you are always gone
And boy, you kno I really love you
I can't deny
I can't see how you could bring me to so many tears
after all these years

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Oohhhhh
I trusted you, I trusted you
So sad, so sad
what love will make you do
all the things that we accept
be the things that we regret
too all of my ladies (ladies) feel me

c'mon sing wit me
See, when I get the strength to leave
You always tell me that you need me
And I'm weak cause I believe you
And I'm mad because I love you
So I stop and think that maybe
You can learn to appreciate me
Then it all remains the same that
You ain't never gonna change
(never gonna change, never gonna change)

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
Butm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby why you hurt me leave me and desert me
Boy I gave you all my heart
And all you do is tear it up
Looking out my window
Knowing that I should go
Even when I pack my bags
This something always hold me back

My Own

This is something that i put together yesterday.

Feel free to comment k... :-)

My Own

The darkness creeps up from behind me

Swallowing my misery

Releasing waves of agony

Threatens to consume me

I try to push myself away

The fog just pulls me under

Forbidding me to find my way

Across this haze of misery

(chorus)

I've been waiting, been hiding in the darkness,

Always searching for something to call my own,

Discovering that you can see right through me,

I knew i had to have you for my own... ... ...

Before i disappear all alone... ... ...

For years I've wandered all alone,

Stuck in this world of wallowing,

Pretending to have dignity,

To keep me from falling.

When you walked into my life,

Your smile became my sunshine,

Alluring me to find a way,

To be with you eternally.

(chorus)

I've been waiting, been hiding in the darkness,

Always searching for something to call my own,

Discovering that you can see right through me,

I knew i had to have you for my own... ... ...

Before i disappear all alone... ... ...

I watch you sleeping, wondering what you are dreaming,

Is it me you're seeing, oh can you feel me?

(chorus)

I've been waiting, been hiding in the darkness,

Always searching for something to call my own,

Discovering that you can see right through me,

I knew i had to have you for my own... ... ...

Before i disappear all alone... ... ...

Bittersweet memory

Something a good friend of mine asked that made me remember this bittersweet memory.
Why is this memory bitter? It's because i had to break somebody's heart.
Until now, i still believed that i lead him on by being his friend, and i mean close friend.
I still feel that it was my fault and i was very cruel towards him as after that incident we never kept in touch.

We talked about everything and even personal stuff but i did not felt that way about him.
He was a nice, sweet and good looking guy but yet something just didn't click.
Anyway i only knew him for a week and i've been down that road before and it didn't end well
so maybe that experienced influenced my decision.
He was so persistent and did not give up easily.

However this is when this memory turns sweet, because of him i finally realized that the person that i really wanted to be with. I gathered all my courage and asked this person if he felt anything for me. Surprisingly, the feeling was mutual and we became an item...
After that i told him that i was involved but he didn't believed me until he saw us together.
I know, i know, i'm a cold hard B***H but what else could i have done?

Now it has been five years since that incident and i do not noe what happened to you but i hope that you have met someone who deserves you and will appreciate you for the person that you are.

I know that you will probably never come across this but i'm sorry for the way our friendship ended and am forever grateful as if you weren't so persistent, i may not have spent 5 loving years with my bie....

...Thank You from the bottom of my heart...

The Twilight Saga

On Monday, i finally saved up enough money to buy the four books.
I went to Jusco's popular to buy them when too bad they only had Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse.
So i bought the three books and winced a bit at the price (RM 120++) but i knew it'll be worth it.
I read twilight as soon as i reached home, OMG it's so addictive.

I finished the three books yesterday afternoon when i decided i should try my luck at Tesco's popular. I rushed into the store and looked around and i saw the final book Breaking Dawn.
When i finally reached home, i sat down and started to read and read and read. Halfway through the book i finally realized that it was already 3 am. And i had to wake up early to settle sum stuff.

So i decided to sleep but i woke up at 4.30 am startled by a sound only to realized that it was one of my black kitten that had sneaked into my room. Damn it, no matter how hard i tried i could not go back to sleep so i continued reading Breaking Dawn and i actually finished the book by 7.30 am. Cool right? Just in time to get ready for the meeting. I was in such a high.. *smiles*

I was fresh all through the meeting but it was only around 1.30 pm when i had lunch with my bie at MMU that i suddenly felt tired and slighly dizzy. After lunch, i raced home and before my head could hit my pillow i was already dreaming of vampires, shape shifters, and the one and only Edward Cullen. Haha....

It was only after dinner that i realized i had finish the while series in 4 days with my busy schedule. Hmm... if only my textbooks could be so interesting.. Damn.. *winks*
I think i'm a bit obsess with the twilight series. After i read twilight, i realized that the movie didn't do it justice but luckily i have a vivid imagination so i was very happy with my version of the movie in my head. *winks*

To all fiction fans as myself, this series is definately worth the money. Just wished i could have bought them earlier.

xoxo
Jessica

The Measure of a Man by Sidney Poitier

Well, this book was published in 2000 so i'm 9 years late.
However, this book remains timeless. It's an memoir of his life and career.
This memoir reveals his childhood years in Cat Island, his respect and love for his parents.
How they influenced him in becoming how he is today.
How he knew his self worth and sense of right and wrong by the age of fifteen.
How he overcome the racial barrier and became the first ever black actor to gain widespread acceptance by audiences of all races purely for his acting ability and screen presence.
This life changing memoir captures the essence of Sidney Poitier and it has inspired many people disregarding race, color and religion.


This memoir inspired me to live life to the fullest with integrity.
This life that was given to me is full of possibilities and i strive harder to live my life with values such as forgiveness, integrity and faith.
I may be different but I have learned through this book that it does not matter what other people think I am but what i think of myself that truly matters.
Normally, I am a person that enjoys fiction however this memoir is brings meaning and inspires me therefore by sharing this memoir i hope that other people may gain from this.

This is a quote by Sidney Poitier,
"I never had an occasion to question color, therefore, I only saw myself as what I was... a human being"

Kiss From A Rose by Seal

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.

But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray.

There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?

But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray,

I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the gray.

There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.

But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.

Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the gray
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.

Blogging

Hey, welcome to my blog.
I know i registered this blog so long ago but never quite commit myself to it.
Hopefully i will stick to it from now and share pieces of my life with you all...
Please bear in mind that I'm still very very new with this (noob) so for any future mistakes please forgive me ya...
Hope everyone has a great year and may your life be filled with many blessings....